Listening to the still small voice

We are hanging out and playing. Dad and I have twin expressions..who needs a twin when I have dad!
Thursday night He finally went to sleep at midnight!

Friday morning entertaining himself with his wipes. He was building towers with his wipes.We LOVE YOU OLIVER more then you can even know!Even Poe hung out with the family to help Oliver heal.

What I am about to write about is something that is extremley emotional and sensitive to me but I feel is important to share my lesson from this week. Early thursday morning the boys were playing while I was cleaning up breakfast. I came into my room where i found Oliver sitting on my bed with an open bottle of an old prescription for sleeping medication. He had gotten the bottle out of my bathroom out of a zipped bag that was up on a semi high shelf (a place I felt comfortable that it was out of reach) . He was able to open the child proof bottle. When I found him with it I asked him if he had eaten any, checked his mouth and talked to him about how dangerous it was that he had gotten into ANY medication. Since i didn't see or find any residue on or in his mouth I thought he didn't eat any. About 20 mins later around 8am he and Jager were laying on my bed watching George when I heard Oliver make a whimpering noise. I went in and found him sitting on the floor kinda like a sprawled frog. I asked Jager what had happened he said Oliver fell off the bed. I picked him up and when I did his head lulled back. This is where my panick starts to kick in. I went to set him down in front of me to ask him where he was hurt and to look him over when his legs completely buckled out from under him. At this point I am not thinking about the medicine I am thinking that he has fallen off the bed and has broken his neck and is paralyzed. I am panicking not knowing what to do. *It is amazing how many thoughts go through your head in just a few seconds* Do I call 911, do I take him to primary, am I panicking before I need to panick, am I imagining what I am seeing, do I call his dr???????? I call Nicole and tell her Jager is on his way with no explanation and then call my parents to get Oscar. I am thinking I can't let anyone with litttle kids have Oscar at this point he has a cold. It was just as we were headed out the door to Primary that I realized it was the medicine and that he had eaten some and it was not him falling off the bed . I ran in to grab the bottle of medication to take it with me so the drs could see exactlly what it was. My dad took Oscar. While my mom drove with me up to Primary with Oliver where Roscoe met us. At this point Oliver is awake and concious, he can count, but can't hold his own head up, is drooling, and can not put any weight on his legs at all. They took him right back and started an IV ran an EKG hooked him to heart and oxygen monitors, drew blood, and a urine sample to run a tox screen on him. It all was beyond any emotion I can even say watching my son like this. The first screen came back negative, they waited a few hours took another urine sample and it came back positive. Wich was good because then we knew for sure it was the medicine and not the fall or something else. They didn't ever need to give him anything or pump his stomach they just waited for the medication to run its life through his tiny system. They ran one liter of fluids through him. They were all very sweet and kind and reassuring to me. As a parent this was one of my lowest points in life, but it is to personal to get into the emotions of it all. At about 11 am Thursday they admitted us to the RTU (Rapid treatment unit). Where we stayed until about 10 am Friday. Today (Sunday) Oliver is back to his normal self he is walking, running playing and feeling much better. We didn't, couldn't leave him unattended at ALL until this morning. By friday night he could walk but not on his own he would crawl or mostly we would just carry or hold him. We decided we didn't want him to sleep in his bed on Friday night in case he tried to climb out, and we didn't want him to sleep in our bed in case he fell off, ecspecially with the hard wood floors. We layed out our camping pads on the family room floor and the whole family slept downstairs friday night. Yesterday (Saturday) he was still very off balance but walking. Today he is back to normal. For Roscoe and I life will never be the same. Our entire lives were shook to the core. There will be many more percautions in our lives. Medicine will only be in locked rooms. I will look at ALL of my children with a new found greatness of who they are and what they mean to me. I thought our lives were changed FOREVER!! I am grateful my son is ok and alive and has no side effects.

NOw to why I call this post listening to the still small voice. For a few weeks now I have been told more then once to get a knob lock on our bathroom door. TOLD!! I did some half hearted looks around my house to find my extra ones but never took the REAL time to find them. I simply was just to busy! All of this could have been prevented had I have used the gift that our Heavenly Father has provided to us. I have had many people tell me not to blame myself or that this isn't my fault it is something that kids do. I understand this, it does happen, it did happen. My point here is that we as Latter Day Saints and as Mothers have been given a very special gift that I know I will never take for granted again! I will never be to busy to stop and look for something or feel bad if I tell my child no, they can't go somewhere, simply because the spirit tells me not to let them. I will NOT ever again take for granted the beautiful GIFT of the Holy GHost! I will not wait to be proven wrong and then beat myself up for not listening. Today I will take this as a lesson learned. I can not change that I ignored the prompting that I didn't take it 100% seriously. What I can cahnge is that next time I won't ignore it. I love this Gospel, Our Heavenly Father, Our Savior. I am grateful for the gift of the Holy Ghost and hope I never take it for granted again! Words will not ever be able to exspress the magnitude of emotion that we have been through these 4 days. Thank you to the GREAT people that surround us and support us. You make our lives better! You have taught us and continue to teach us through example!

Teaching by love ,example and laughter